Dominic Hoey is a poet, author, musician, actor and chronic illness sufferer. He has previously performed under the stage name Tourettes as a hip-hop artist releasing a number of acclaimed solo works. After a sold out debut season in 2017, Dominic will bring his original autobiographical theatre piece ‘Your Heart Looks Like A Vagina’ back for a return season at The Basement Theatre in Auckland and to Wellington’s BATS Theatre in April.
Scoop co-editor Joseph Cederwall talked to Dominic in Wellington where he was appearing at the Readers and Writers week.
Firstly, tell us a bit about the play?
It's basically about getting sick with an autoimmune
disease called Ankylosing Spondylitis or AS, losing
everything in my life and getting it back again. But its
kind of funny at the same time, because even while the
situation was going on, and it was quite scary and heart
breaking, it was funny. It was just so ridiculous; having
the doctor say I was fine when I couldn’t even walk, or
the case officer at WINZ saying I should just get a job
using a cash register. So even while it was going on I was
thinking this is good material and taking notes, so when it
came time to write the play I had a lot of
inspiration.
Sounds very
Kafkaesque
Yeah for real, any time you are
dealing with the bureaucracy of the welfare system it is
really Kafkaesque.
How did you first get into Hip
Hop
Family were definitely super political –
they weren't really encouraging but they weren’t
discouraging so saying I was going to be a rapper was met
with the same response as if I had of said I was going to be
a doctor.
When I was about 15 Friend whose dad was a lawyer for the Black Power and used to go to the UK for work and bring back cassettes of Hip Hop – and we would just listen and rap along to them. Then, when I was about 15 we started a rap group at high school called ‘Homesqueeze’– I’ve always felt like that when it is good, hip hop can be the ultimate form of expression because it's so free you can do anything with in it – like you can be poetic, you can be literal, songs can be a minute or 12 mins. Also when I was growing up in the 80s rappers were like superheroes – I remember seeing a video od Run DMC and thinking it was the coolest thing I'd ever seen.
It was short-lived – we did one gig and had a practice at somebody’s house party in Ponsonby and it got home invaded by some gang prospects so that put a damper on things for a little while but I was still rapping and free styling the whole time. Then I was part of another group called 5th floor and did a bunch of shows down in Wellington.
What are your thoughts on current hip-hop/rap
and the dynamic between ‘conscious’ and ‘gangster’
styles
I don’t really listen to much hip-hop
anymore. I kind of just woke up one day and I was just sick
of it. I guess from being involved in it and listening to it
for so long – like 25 years. I mean I sort of still do,
there are some rappers who I will still listen to when they
put new stuff out and some good new artists that I like but
I think generally its just bullshit and ego ad I eel when
you get to a certain age it's kind of hard to get into that
bravado – it's kind of like a young persons’
thing.
But I do think in NZ now we've got some great young artists – Jess B, Eno and Dirty, Mellow Downs, even SWIDT – are all doing great stuff. It's actually pretty exciting, I think it's definitely the healthiest the scene has ever been, and the nature of it today with social media etc means they are self sufficient in a way that we weren't able to be.
I saw you were working with Nga
Rangatahi Toa as a youth mentor, that is an awesome
organisation, are you still involved?
I’m not
working Rangatahi at the moment, but I am working with
another programme called Atawhai run by the Kindness Institute
and doing some freelancing, like for a programme down in
Kaponga in Taranaki that a friend runs.
It must
be fulfilling work?
Oh yeah for sure, I’d
really love to do more of it but it's just kind of hard as
there is very little funding for these
programmes.
Hopefully that improves with Jacinda
at the helm.
Yeah well hopefully all this talk
about child poverty is going to lead to some improvements in
that space.
How did you get into ‘real’
poetry?
I always kind of did both, but I
remember showing some poetry i wrote to mates at high school
and they were just like ‘what the fuck are you doing that
for’ - it just seemed kind of weird. But then around that
same time I met of my hip-hop crew happened to have a sister
who was a poet and another friends’ Mum was quite a famous
poet. So that was how I was introduced to actual proper
poetry symbolism metaphors etc. My friend, even though he as
younger than me was using imagery and metaphor in his
rhymes, so that was how I learned about all that stuff
rather than just literally writing what I was thinking.
So you were always writing?
Yeah I
was always compulsively writing but there was no direction
to it because my schools were always so shit i wasn't really
encouraged at all.
How were you exposed to slam
poetry as a vehicle for your art?
That happened
completely by accident. I went past this cafe one day in
2000 and it had this sign outside saying poetry competition
tonight, so I went back home and finished off this poem I
had been writing and went back. And I won it so I was like
oh shit this is a thing. Because I’d never even heard of
Slam before that, but it was also around the time that Def
Jam Poetry began blowing up and they came to NZ too, so that
I guess opened my eyes to what it could be and that there
were actually other people doing poetry, so I started
incorporating it into my hip-hop sets after that.
You also recently released your highly acclaimed
debut novel Iceland, how would you describe
it?
It’s a novel about class, poverty, drugs
and a love story of two artists seemingly trapped in the
oppressive gentrification of Central
Auckland.
Sounds close to home, how
autobiographical or informed by real situations is it and
how much fiction?
It's 95% fiction. There are a
couple of real stories in there. That said, it is quite
close to how I was living in my 20's.
How do
you feel about the effects of gentrification on
Auckland?
It used to really bother me but I
don't really care anymore, I think I've just checked out
because it’s so irreparably fucked and broken now. But I
guess I’m pretty old now, so I guess for young people
there is stuff going on I don't know about but I’m sick of
everything being set up for rich people that’s what is
nice about coming down here, there are still places where
people can be weird and poor and different where everything
up there is just set up for these conformist cowards who get
upset about everything and call the cops all the time.
When did you become
aware of your health issues?
I was about 35 so
it was about 5 years ago. I knew something was wrong, but
didn't know what it was. I was living in Melbourne at the
time and it just deteriorated really quickly and I had to
move back. I got misdiagnosed a bunch and then a friend just
said ‘you should go to a rich person's doctor’ because I
was just going to a cheap doctor. So I did that, it cost me
$70 and they figured out what it was.
Was it a
shock?
It was kind of a relief to have a
diagnosis to be honest, because I had been in so much pain
and people kept saying it’s cancer so it was kind of a
weight off my mind. And I was quite lucky that I reacted
well to the drugs right away and got my life back quite
quickly. Like I have one friend who has it and can’t even
do anything, and nothing really works for him, so I was
quite fortunate in that sense.
What has helped most with the psychological aspect?
Just keeping busy, doing things I always wanted to do but maybe wasn't, including the play - it was something Id always wanted to do, and I always wanted to teach creative writing and I’ve started doing that. I guess it was kind of a bit of a kick up the ass in a way. Also charging properly for my time, which I didn't really do before. All of sudden it was like a pain in the ass to do stuff now, so I had to figure how much I should charge to make it worth leaving the house.
Have you done much Meditation and yoga since the
diagnosis?
Yeah my partner is a meditation and
yoga teacher, and the programme I mentioned before Atawhai,
a big component of that is teaching meditation and yoga. So
I try and meditate every day and do yoga a couple of times a
week, which definitely helps.
So it sounds like
this health crisis has Shaped your life and put you on a
different path, has it made your mission more clear?
Yeah for sure, and I also think it has
simplified things, because i only have so much energy in a
day so I’m not going to waste time doing other stuff. And
also I’ve just though whatever happens, good or bad there
are all these other options to follow. But I have been very
lucky that a lot of very positive stuff has happened since,
whereas if it had gone the other way it may have been a bit
harder to deal with.
What was the motivation for
play?
Raising awareness around AI disease,
around the condition, but also just a new avenue to get my
work out there and perform, because i love creating and
performing.
What do you hope it
achieves?
I know when I got diagnosed it was
quite lonely, I’d never heard if this disease, I didn't
know anyone else who had it and so it was really awesome
that when I first did it in Auckland all these people who
were obviously sick were coming to it and coming up to me
afterwards and talking to me about their condition and what
they were going through. I think ultimately I’d like to
start some kind of organisation to bring people together
like that. Because disease like we have, so called
‘invisible diseases’ are so common but they are not very
well recognised. And I think there is a lot of stigma around
it, you know a lot of people feel guilty because they look
healthy.
I guess life always informs art
right?
Yeah I unfortunately can’t seem to
write about other stuff. But I think it’s the job of
creative people to take these things and make the everyday
poignant, beautiful and funny.
Medical system -
what is lacking?
Support is the main thing - you
see specialist once a year for maybe 10 minutes. Also, I
think they need to be more open to holistic and alternative
healthcare options. And just the support, there is a
complete lack of it currently. I mean it's not their fault
either, its completely underfunded. And I guess labour has
the chance now to step up and address it. When I got sick I
thought there must be some form of support, counselling or
support or something, but it was like “nah here’s a
pamphlet see ya later.”
Even with the welfare system, they make you go and get a doctors cert over and over again, and there is no understanding of the fact that people with chronic illnesses it’s pretty full on and traumatic and they should be supporting people in those situations more.
Medical Cannabis why are we stuck in a
heartless system despite progress overseas and all the
evidence of its benefits?
Its fucked - I was so
excited when we got a change in Government and I heard we
were going to have a referendum but then it was a big let
down that it won’t be until 2020 and there seems to be no
progress on medical cannabis. It's hard to believe it's not
because of big pharmaceutical companies paying off the
politicians. I mean I’m sure some of the National
politicians are genuinely anti, but I reckon a lot of it
would come down to kick backs, and outside lobby groups etc.
So what is next for you after this
play?
I have a poetry book that's almost
finished and I’m going to start on a new novel in
June.
‘Your Heart Looks Like a Vagina’ by Dominic ‘Tourettes’ Hoey.
April 17-21st 2018
- 6:30pm
The Heyday Dome at BATS Theatre,
Wellington
Tickets available via www.bats.co.nz
April 10-14th
2018 - 8:00pm
The Basement Theatre
Lower Greys Ave,
Auckland
Tickets available via iticket.co.nz
Here
is a Loading Docs Video of Dominic speaking about the
making of the play:
#Losing from Loading Docs on https://vimeo.com">Vimeo.